Haha... no worries, Raiin, I understand that... which, well, meeting you would also probably be the best experience in my secondary school life too... Especially sec 3 and 4 years... imagine being stucked in a class for an entire two years with people who you can't really get very close or like very much with... I think you know exactly WHO I mean, Raiin. Until now, I still can't believe that SHE actually LIED to me about where she's studying in after we got out O levels' results! WHAT THE HELL?! What exactly IS THE POINT of lying to YOUR FRIEND about where you are studying?! Is it gonna make you earn money? Or do you benefit from lying to your friends ABOUT WHERE YOU'RE STUDYING?

And for my polytechnic life... Er.. I must say I did meet afew people whom I can call good friends. They are mostly from my own class though. There are two whom I kinda always stick together with... they did associate with me as much as they would... and are probably the only or few ones who tries to make me get myself involved in their conversations, afraid that I would be left out, though they did tease me alot... But it's an enjoyable time. The others.. are probably from my CCA, though I think that they were my best friends... but it might seemed that I'm a little mistaken... Gaahh! Anyway... I'm reaching the very last semester of my third year soon... And after the concert in november, I don't ever think I'm gonna really meet most of the CCA people anyway... So well, I think I should just start worrying about whether or not I'm gonna go University.

My dad went to Genting over the weekends... so there's practically no one to bother me much at home... But my aunt did it. I really don't know what they're thinking. One moment, they seemed to be on our side and help us, but the next they're instantly on the opposite side with my dad against us. How fast can a person switch stands and sides? And just now, she's practically nagging and being angry at ME just because I have yet to go over to my grandma's place today. And as I know grandma's not able to cook yet, I didn't go over at dinner time too, and my uncle called to, sarcastically told me off for that. I really cannot understand them at all! I did practically go over to check on my grandma's needs and keep her company for a while from monday to friday, every morning and afternoon. And what? They expects me to stay there at all times? We all have our own stuffs to do too... and nothing will be get done if I just stayed at my grandma's place the whole time... And even though it's kinda true when they said that I don't know how to care for people... as yes, I don't really know how, since no one really showed me how it is... considering my mom's already not here and my dad is no better off. But I did try... I tried, though people always dispell my concern away as if it means nothing. So is it MY fault if it didn't end up in the way it's supposed to? Ah damn...! It's always because of these types of stupid family problems and issues that makes me feel like staying away from them, that makes me liked being with my friends, being by myself or just my lappy, so much more better than facing them at all... Well... if you're attentive enough... you might spot the fact that in all of my fics... there's no main original character that I used, who has a proper family. Fancy THAT!